-choka-

(maturelyfleeingthelustsofyouth)

to say goodbye to

youthful lusts that plague the young...

to say goodbye to

the gratification found

in dark corners; the

sound of moans and incessant

touching that robbed us

of a breath so dearly held-

to say goodbye to

what i felt has defined me

for more than twenty

years; yes...to say goodbye to

memories: nasty,

dank happenings you wouldn't

tell momma...those toe-

tappin', soul and skin lappin'

transgressions we would...

excuse me; i would glory

in. the quivering

feelings of: 'i'm gon' get caught'

actions i freely gave my-

self to. the nameless

faces; i sold myself to

for more than a life-

altering release; at least

thats what i see now...

the need to fill stygian

voids best left un-filled

by the myriad of forms

i'd lain with. their breath

blown in my paper thin veins

beggin' to be real;

beggin' to do more than live...

ummm...those days...those times...

those moments that i often

cold-shoulder'd, passed for

the fueled flames: dark lust;

talkin'  this burnin' this most

savory burnin' i

would have to turn that loose? have

put that aside, have

to strip myself of this skin...

youthful lusts dethroned...

now treking towards authentic

Me...now living maturely.

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